You must know that God loves you. Man is sinful and separated from God, since the fall. The wages of sin is death. But there is hope, God sent His Son to die for your sins, in your place.
If you’d like to accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior, and start healing from the wounds you’ve experienced in life, we believe Romans 10:9-10 is the path:
“If you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord” and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. One believes with the heart, resulting in righteousness, and one confesses with the mouth, resulting in salvation.”
“Dear God, I know I’m a sinner and I ask for your forgiveness. I believe Jesus is your Son and that He died for my sins and was raised from the dead. I want Him to be my Savior and Lord from this day forth. In Jesus name, Amen.”
Next steps would be to find a good bible based church, get involved and start to read your bible daily. If you don’t understand it, find another version or ask God to help you as you read. This is the “playbook” and it will teach you who God is and how to navigate through life.